Transformations !

Everyone knows life changes and slowly we get transformed into a new soul with every new step in our life... Seldom, and very few realise how it changes you thoroughly... I was one among them, I could see my life changing drastically and I had nothing to stop but had to just watch it changing and hoping that it would bring me good...
Born in a moderately urbanised family and having roamed around a few places in the world made me less orthodox and more modern in my lifestyle... to me... everything is just and fine until or unless it hurts anyone badly...well, this is how I was as a spinster, as I young girl..

Nevertheless, After a frantic groom hunt for more than 2-3 years my dad did land up with an alliance from a small town and with a family much in contrast to mine.... Everything was dependent on my final word... the YES.... How could I actually say a Yes without knowing the person or his family and with not less than a world of whirls and thrills, I took a sweet 8 months to say the YES, forcibly though.... thanks to my circumstances and situations itching me at that time...
And what now.. ? I was married within 2 months in the wonderful month of November,2008 and hoping that I made a educated choice... I was happy to get into the marital bliss with lots of turmoils in my brain and heart coming up a free package along with my marital bliss....
It wasnt even a month and I could see how he(My hubby) took charge of my life... My ideas and lifestyle now changed from moderatley urbanised to orthodoxly rural mindframe... I was draped in a Burqa all over I went. I stopped talking and hearing to strangers which I used to love just a few months ago... I kept away from my friends who have been my life for around 6-7 years now...My phone bill now started to appear in 3 digits rather than the usual 4 digit figures.....Threw up all my tights, jeans, tank tops and started learning to adore the 5 yards saree...Had to ask " Can I? " or "Should I ? " before doing anything different from the routine. The complete independent metropolitan girl now started transcending into a interdependent rural woman..My free time was now utilised in tidying up the kitchen and house much in contrast to my beauty parlor visits before a few months.
Why did I let this happen to me ?? I am wondering still but may be I did this because HE likes it and it helped me to keep away the tugs and quarrels at home due to our incompatibility.. I knew someone had to compromise and I chose to be the one... being a ever complacent goody girl.
Now, I ask myself " Is marriage a boon or a bane ? " and wondering what could the answer be, may be I should ask him before I can answer that...