Its a girl !!!!

Here I am writing something after a long long time, not that I was really busy to write something, but I was real lazy to write something :)

It was early in the morning and I suddenly started getting numerous messages on my mobile...hurriedly I came to my room to pick my mobile hoping that it does not bring any awful news... and started reading the message sent by my sister, as I was reading through it ,I could feel the glitter glowin on my face... The news was something really sweet and it was from home which is 100 of kms away, it said I became an aunt, my cousin sister who is of my age too had given birth to a girl baby.
Though the news was something I had anticipated since months so I thought it would not bother me much but on contrary to what I thought, it did make a difference to me, I was so delighted that I literally started jumping with joy, so much that I even forgot that I had failed in my MBA exams the day before.This feeling of 'aunthood ' mustbe as good as motherhood and I can confirm it only after I experienced the later. It was a feeling only one can understand when one faces it, sounds similiar to the one which people say when it comes to love :) ?
Um, Afterall it was a feeling I had encountered the first time in my 23 years. I did not want that feeling to erode away so easily I wanted to celebrate it a simple way I could,hence I gave alms to the needy and bought some sweets to distribute to my friends.
It did create the rays of joy,excitement and somewhere deep there was an anxiety too. Initially I could not comprehend the anxiety in me at all, well, it was not wholly anxiety but something similiar, may be the woman in me had started raising questions,may be it wanted to ask will I go through the same motherhood as my sister did ? If yes, then how and when ? I somehow felt a feeling of envy and I still dont know why .
I know this would sound silly and stupid but I am sure every girl must have faced it sometime or the other especially if the news is from someone very close and dear to you.